Im so sick of all this shti .. so here it goes .. my parents are being assholes.. i just got back from new york and i havent scene my boyfriend in 4 days.. Ive been hanging out with this guy who is awsome and whatnot .. but i have a boyfriend hes a sweet heart ... andmy boyfriend totally trust me .. and theres no reason that he shouldent but im ganna be honest I really just want to fel like im worth something .. and i cant do this anymore.. im not eating i havent been at all really .. and i have to go to the hospital today because i passed out and feel down a flight of stares.. so im not doing well .. but sometimes i wish that my boyfriend was more protectie .. sometimes i wish that he would just call me and tell me he loved me .. i feel so alone .. but thats ok .. i guess im awlays alone even in a crowd of people .. oh bye the way if anyone was woundering i got the job .. and i have a interveiw for hot topic in the parkmeadows mall .. i know its to far but fuck it .. im at the point i dont care if i disapear .. he wont notice .. hes to busy for me anyway ..